Silk Stockings

Master's words for today were silk stockings.......i loathe stockings of any kind, as for me, they remind me so much of part of the past that i would have really rather put in  a little box and lock it  away. However i guess i should just carry on and blog about them , cos the sooner i write my feelings on them the sooner i can put them to bed again as so to speak.
i realise for some men , and maybe females they can be quite sensual as part of a uniform or dressing up and for a female they are probably alot better value than a pair of tights, i know that they can give good sensations to people when wearing them or being touched in a sexual way , and i have to admit they can look erotic when worn with some other nice under clothes and a decent pair of heals ......
They can be verstile also,  used to tie a person, gag them , restrict their movement ,and even blindfold them. Like knickers i believe their is a place that a stocking sniffer (for want of  a better description )can buy used ones from and have their pleasure from them. but for me they  make my blood go cold.
It's not as if i dont like to be girly, for if Master wished i guess i would wear them for Him , but the experience that i had with them left me quite phobic, even with tights to a degree, and without realising it when He has used a pair to blindfold me i have subconsiously managed to wriggle them off.
The problem started for me when an ex who liked me to wear them and silk knickers , decided to use them as a gag and to tie up my wrists with them as well. Fine in normal circumstances but i was not feeling well and they created  a massive asthma attack for me . Not so fine .. He eventually realised that i was not messing about and then had trouble to undo the binds of my wrists as he had pulled them tight, this caused further panic for me.  His answer was , i was told well i should have my asthma under control. (Sometimes even the best medicated illness has blips) and i was really shaken .  i didnt trust that person to play with me after this and took back a big chunk of my trust , but at the same time blamed myself for have an asthma attack.
Its taken a long time to get back into the habit of wearing any type of hoisery on my body ( i still prefer socks or nothing ) and i would have preferred a different word, but maybe the time was right to put this one away and face it .
 hugs thankyou Master
saffy
xx


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