surprise

 So much has happened since this one last posted on here , and she feels that she has neglected her blog a little bit....(however her computer is currently being mended as it was in vital need of some tlc and maintenance, and hopefully it will be back soon.) It's funny how even though she has Master's computer to use as she would her own , she still hankers after hers.
Master has given her two surprises in the past week....(hence the weird title) Both were gifts to help her function, one of them she didn't think she would ever earn back again and she cried when she received it.
One was a silver chain , that represents her collar when she is in nilla mood.......When Master and herself were going through the rough patch and He took a break , she is ashamed to say that she broke her last one and thrust it at Him in frustration of not knowing why and what was happening. Never before has she hurt herself or Him so much by doing this, nor will she ever be so stupid as to do so again. The break was needed for B/both Master and her to share the close bond that she does now with Him. She still has the little heart that was attached to the last one as Master had kept that safe. Now she wears it with love and pride and it helps her to focus when she thinks that she cant.
What did she learn when she didn't have it.....It does not matter really whether she is wearing it or not, as in her mind and heart she is still His  just as she was when it wasn't there. It helps her focus quickly when she has it on, and already she is conscious when she is doing things she is not quite sure of she feels her hand drawn to it ..........she prefers to wear it and He (Master) knows this and has once again allowed her the pleasure of doing so.
The second thing  was a new "toy", . Now  for ages Master has looked for a magic wand by Hitachi for this ones toy bag. For some reason the UK didn't seem to do them., However love honey suddenly made their own design and He decided to treat her to it.
All she can say is WOW . Obviously those who have one of these little (who is she trying to kid little ... more like huge) beauty's will know the pleasure they can instantly lift a girl to. It was during the test run of this, that this girl fell further than she even new was possible into her at oneness with her Master. He took her hand while she was riding the waves of  pleasure and she opened her eyes , looked into His, and saw the love and tenderness in them as He took her deeper and deeper into her sub space. (she finds it very ......she does not have the words to describe to anyone those moments.) The completeness , the love, the security , the passion, the tenderness..... it was all there deep and she will hold it in her mind as long as she lives.
Afterwards as she came down from her space flight.....He held her close and told her how good she was and how He loved her.  Always before there has been a chink in her armour there of the abuse that she had suffered as a child , that somehow what she was doing maybe , just might be dirty and tainted . Some times this was visible to Him sometimes it was not.  Yet like a Dr removing a shard of glass ...He removed that last doubt and she saw the love and tenderness for herself in His eyes.
Thank You Master .
hugs to A/all
saffy

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Tired but happy

The routine that Master is trying to work on with this one has been pulled from pillar to post , due to house guests that turn up unannounced and mini adults that have their own agenda and don't realise that others might need to get things done as well... All in all though life is good and if one ignores the negativity that is still thrown her way, it is passable also. She is happy and Master keeps her close and safe and her dog keeps her sane (most of the time)
One of the nicest but worst things that has happened in this week was that she has managed to gain another point for being sassy .. Why nice? Well it means that Master is still keeping a close eye on what she does, and although she would give anything to have that point taken away again......it is there... and it reassures her in an odd way. At the time she didn't even think that the comment was bad .........but looking back it was a bit off.
Ahhh well she will have to keep a closer eye on things .
hugs to all
saffy

the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .

A lovely day

Today brought bright blue skies and the promise of a  trip out for this one... however it forgot to warn her that it would have a cold wind chill and leave her wishing she had have taken her warm scarf. Master  chose and brought her three new items of clothes ... two tops and a pair of loungers for the house ,(she fell in love with the loungers as they were warm and fleecy....) and she notices that gradually He is adding the colour back in her wardrobe as well as her life.
On a down note she has not found time for meditation today as yet ,as shopping came first and took allot longer than she would have thought. BUT it was nice to spend precious minutes and time with Master, and she now has the ingredients for a strawberry birthday cake for her sons friend that she has to make as well.
Hugs and smiles to A/all
saffy

the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .

hair today gone tomorrow.

Since late October time last year this one has suffered badly with alopecia. Its not the first time that it has occurred and probably it will not be the last. Thankfully it is limited at the moment to just two patches ... one medium one and one small one, and can still be disguised under hats and hair bands and careful arranging of hair, but it comes as a shock to people when the hat is off and they see her without them.
Master refers to it as an ice skating rink or a football field, and she has to laugh when He says this because the skin is so light to the hair colour she guesses it does look a little like ice. He is not being cruel when He says this , it is easier on all the family if it is treated in a non serious way.
One of the things that has saddened her since it has been on going is the fact that He can no longer use her hair as a leash or blend it in any play as there is a risk that He would be left with a clump of hair. Thankfully of the three times it has happened to her it has always grown back.. sometimes more kinky sometimes a slightly different shade but it has reappeared. Only time will tell what colour and strength it will be this time.
One of the nicest things about it is that Master loves all of this one, and not just for what she looks like . He does loads to boost her confidence and her mind set. For this she can not thank Him enough....It is hard work being a Master...and then You get this thrown in on top. Thank You for walking by my side and giving me courage to laugh at this . Love You.
hugs to all
saffy



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 Last night this one got some ouchy pain that has left her feeling a little uncomfortable all day .... not that she is complaining because it was balanced in the way that she likes it and Master enjoys giving it . The day has been a floaty one and she must admit to having trouble focusing a little.... but in a good way.
It is a constant reminder of pleasurable pain... as a pose to bad pain, and really she guesses the margin  for this is very narrow, and is therefore grateful that Master knows and keeps in this border.
The weather here has been bitterly cold at night and first thing in the morning,  the first snowdrop of the year is in bloom though.........so all is good. There was also the most wonderful sunrise this morning ... reflected in the frost and giving the ground and buildings and erie orange glow. (this one loves the cold winter mornings especially when she doesn't need to go out in them.)
have a good week A/all
saffy

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Medtation and focus

The past few weeks, ( well since January really) , this one has been taking time out of the busy hustle and bustle of her day to practise a little meditation.... it helps calm her thoughts , and keep her focused on the things that should be important to her. It has been immensely pleasant to allow the brain to wander and heal parts of the body .....and has gone a long way to keeping her thought patterns where they should be. 
If there is an important task to remember, she has started to leave  it, (virtually of course) in the place that she visits when she is in deep meditation, so that when she goes there, it is a  reminder, and has managed to clear out allot of blockages that have been picked up on the years before hand.
hope E/every body's weekend is going well
hugs

saffy

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Who is afraid of Friday 13th

 Who is afraid of Friday 13th? .................. well not this one. Having woken up at a good time , completed the chores that are on the list and the routine ones , she does not see how it is different to any other day, but there again  there is this pain in her sinus that is gradually getting worse and the hound is a little antsy today as there is frost and a cold wind.Ahhh but no , things are going to be OK, it is a positive frame of mind and not superstition to be listened to. 
Yesterday was a good day, Master managed to find a new blender/processor/mixer thing which should cut down on the preparation time for making things considerable, and best of all it was cheaper than the one that had been looked at , with a higher motor speed and a better brand name.  This one has already clocked that it does crushed ice , so it will make a different dimension on ice play lol.........not sure if this is a good thing or not .
hugs to all out there in bloggy land
saffy

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hot chocolate

Whilst making the drinks last night , before heading for bed, and desperately trying to avoid the 10pm curfew, this one came to the conclusion that there were many ways and extras that she is given to serve Master, however making the hot chocolate has to be one of her favourites.
There is something yummy about the hug that it seems to give you as it marks the end of a day , and says time to slow down and relax. she particularly likes the new cabury's chocolate that comes with the tassimo discs now, as it froths really nice and sometimes leaves heart shaped patterns in the drink at the top.
As eating chocolate is a reward in our house (unless it is holidays or a special occasion) to just be allowed a mug of it every night is a treat and a privilege that she is honoured to make for the household.
 hope every ones week is going well
saffy

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peace.......perfect peace

 The plan is to have a happy and peaceful weekend , and so far so good. The house is still asleep at the moment, so this spare five minutes are being utilised to make a blog entry , and then maybe there will be time later to do other things  ...  Although there are a few people about outside, there is not enough noise, to disturb the warm cocoon of quietness that is surrounding the house.
Stress had tried to rule this one the past few days , but luckily Master saw this, and has taken a firm and controlled hand to steer the calmness back. Communication has become the norm and gradually the feelings of trying to carry all the problems of the world on her own are vanishing.
Master's devil cane is laying quite lonely (perhaps fate shouldn't be tempted here) on the top of the drawers, and seven days in the year she still has not managed to score any chalk marks.... However she is also mindful there is still the debt of two from last year plus maintenance to be considered so she will leave those thoughts alone.
Have a wonderful weekend where ever Y/you are
hugs to A/all
saffy

the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .

When it came around to making a New Years resolution at the beginning of the month, like other years, many were made in this house, and this ones, were made in the form of a bucket list for 2012. There are 12 things listed in total on it, (and no, it was not consciously 12 things for the year 2012) each one of them should be achievable , especially now as Master has purchased a wireless printer that makes it possible for the scrap book of the year to be created .Each month being given a page, it should be a lovely reminder of the good things W/we  do, and the things that were happening in the year 2012 , that can be shared with all the family. (maybe there should be kinkster one as well for Masters eyes only lol. )
The weather outside is still very windy.... the bins have collapsed and every time they are stood up the fall again and the trampoline and children's toys from next door are gradually moving , and blowing about their garden. The dog is not amused ....as it kind of spooks her. Still i guess W/we are lucky this is not the norm in the U.K.
hope Y/you are A/all well in blogger land
hugs
saffy

Things are much brighter and
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Happy New Year

 Just to wish you A/all a Happy New Year and a short post as well.
 The last few days have been a whirl of making plans, and finding there are new guide lines to follow. Life for A/all of the family seems to be happy and on an even keel. The days have somehow gotten in a muddle and it either feels like a day ahead or a day behind.. that's what happens when holidays fall on a weekend for this one. 
Have fun , hugs
saffy 


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