Monday, 28 April 2014

stolen meme

  What is your occupation?
mum...wife... slave... what ever He chooses...(it was preschool teacher when i used to work.)

2. What colour are your socks right now?
White fluffy ones with pink and green spots on them.

3. What are you listening to right now?
Chickens and a loud tick of a clock.

4. Last thing you ate?

5. Can you drive a stick shift?
Not officially.

6. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be?
(only one?) ok  gold

7. Last person you spoke to on the phone?
My daughter

8. Do you like the person who sent this to you?
Didn't have it sent but spotted it and "borrowed " it

9. How old are you?

10. Favourite drink? 
green tea

11. What is your favourite sport to watch?
Rugby or football.... and i am very verbal watching both

12. Have you ever dyed your hair?
The hairdresser does it these days, but yes in the past

13. Pets?
One spoilt husky

14. Favourite food?

15. What was the last movie you watched?
Dispicable me
16. What was the last book you read?
The hobbit , because i needed to make sure i wasn't going mad when i thought that the film was so different to the actual book.

17. What do you do to vent anger?
depends... walk with the dog or beat the pillow up.

18. What was your favourite toy as a child?
  A chad valley Jacko monkey.

19. What is your favourite season?
Spring time... all the new life. 
20. Hugs or kisses?

21. Cherries, Blueberries or Strawberries?

Ronnie, thanks , i stole it from you x

the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .

Tuesday, 22 April 2014

what , i thought holidays were stress free.

 What a manic few days......
But , first before i start an apology to morningstar, atm = at the moment. ( i am for ever getting wrong for using shortened English and shouldn't have done it. ) And ummm , i kind of pressed the wrong button and deleted the rest of your comment. Sorry.
We have had a real busy weekend, including some  hiccups and a few drama moments... Two of the children descended on Easter Saturday, and so much laughter was had by us all , despite being young grownups i find they still want eggs... and our daughter brought some over also. ( during the drama , noise and confusion , i forgot to give one out to our egg man ( he brings chicken eggs each week so they don't get cracked on the way home from the grocery store ~ it started one year as a joke, and has gone on ever since. ) When the young ones had gone on their different ways ( to parties and dinners) Master and i sat down for a well earned rest and chat. i learnt that He has not given up on the yellow folder idea, He just does not feel that it is the right time to give it out at the moment , and is waiting because there are certain things that need to be put into place before i can begin it. ( i guess i can be patient )
Sunday saw us dining on a giant roast turkey , and much fun and laughter happening with the three of us in our house. It was lovely to eat dinner, wear silly party hats and watch a film, just taking in time with Master and the middle one.
Monday saw a visit to the garden centre  , where we found out our post had been going missing again in a round about way. Master choose a load of brightly coloured flowers to plant in the beds that i had been preparing over the holiday period, and some other bits and pieces , including  a few paint brushes and wall fixings... We went to the till to pay, and His card was rejected.. this actually brought panic on to me because i knew we had well over enough to pay for the plants and stuff three times over and told the lady so. Master said that He would go to the cash machine to withdraw the funds as sometimes the till readers are cranky, and the card told Him to contact the bank as soon as possible. ( but would not allow Him any money. By this time i was really panicky, worrying that the thing had been cloned or, hacked or something and worrying about our bills etc...
We returned home after apologising to the shop till worker, ( He would not let me use my bank cards ) and Master headed for His Internet banking. He had been locked out of this as well. On phoning up the number on the card, He was eventually  told that they had changed the bank account and sent Him a new letter about this, and that they had also sent Him a new card separately as the old one would become void after a month.... We had not received these... and it turned out that this is now the fourth letter (important one) that we know of that has not been delivered to our house....As we have got other peoples mail through our door and a new post lady i can only conclude that she has sent out things ( including Master's new bank card) to another house. ) It does not give me much hope for the British postal system and i know that i would not like to be in her shoes when Master has to complain again.
Today has been spent with a trip to the health service people and now resting , and trying to update my neglected blog. i hope you all had a better Easter holiday than we did .

the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .

Saturday, 19 April 2014

Updates... maybe not.

 For days the new list has sat on the office window sill, tempting me to look at it, taunting me to try and read a few bits of it.... and today i has gone..... i have seen where He has placed it... (neatly under the little printer brought from a thrift shop, )but in truth i am starting to not want it.
Don't get me wrong , i am still a stubborn , pig headed , submissive slave, and definitely His and His alone. but i am finding more and more , where there was the burning curiosity to want to read it and follow the instructions, now i am more worried that i am so used to making my own decisions and not having a list, that i will fail it dismally when and if i ever do get it.
( for those who can not do mind reading , i am talking about my list of instructions that Master made me for the start of 2014 , which  for one reason or another have not made it to me to be carried out.) i have tried using the old ones, not the same if there is no comment on them..i tried for weeks to peep at the new ones , (managing to read a few words , but not really making sense without the whole picture) Now i don't want to look.
i justify this mind frame in my mind by dedicating everything that i do to the best of my ability to making His and my family comfy, but it is hard .. and the list was easier.. maybe this old bird can learn new tricks , who knows... but for now i am off to garden and pull the weeds.
have fun all .
ps it is 10:49 am here atm morningstar .

the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .

Thursday, 10 April 2014

 i know that i should probably be blogging , but, i really don't know what to blog about at the moment. Life is passing by at a kind of haze, and i still look forward to winning / earning the silly yellow folder. i know that Master has written some guide lines out there to help me , i can see them if i glance over to the window sill... several times i have thought about looking at them, but they are not really mine to read yet, so i have resisted.
i don't know why he is waiting to give them to me.. every time i have asked i have the sneaky feeling that the time i am going to have them has been put back , and eventually i guess part of my inner body will reject them and not want them. Yet i know i do at the moment.. It is like a child or dog wanting to have something and being told no.
i think what makes it harder for me to accept is that i don't know the reason why he is with holding them, and i am having to fight the a battle with myself to resist asking again. ( the time that i have asked i felt the answer was glossed over.)
i guess the only thing that i can do is wait and see what happens ............
take care all and have a good Thursday

the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .

Tuesday, 8 April 2014

Today has been good , we (as in Master and i got out and about and managed to find a bargain at the local charity shop of a mini printer ) We have two already, which are great , but they are so fiddly to work and if you just want a picture quick they are not  always economical ( in time wise at least) to set up and print. So Master had been looking into getting a new one , but the emphasis at the moment seems to be on the bigger the better. This little one will suit His needs well.
While we were out Master decided that we should  have lunch, ( and i had forgotten my meds) So when He came to ask why i was not taking it i had to fess up that i had removed it from my bag and had not put any new ones in. (Sighs... i need to get used to taking the silly tablets , but i was the one to suffer as the pain killers had worn off and i didn't have any new ones. ) He did threaten to give me 100 lines as to the tune of i should not be a plonker and forget my meds ..... but thankfully He didn't..i know that i wont be so lucky next time and so i better put a spare set of tabs in each of my bags so i don't get it wrong again.
Life here today has been good as the sun is out, but then so is the pollen and with it bringing a new set of problems .. ahhh well it has to be better than the dust pollution we had last week , at least the dog and i can go walking early in the morning before the count rises to high.
Have a good rest of the day all... i am a little on edge as i think may maintenance may be spreading its way to me tonight as Master seems to be so much better today... ( part of me wants it, the other part dreads it as my body had gone so long with out it , i think i am back in control. muhahahahaha)

the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .

Sunday, 6 April 2014

a maybe silly question.

 A question for all you slaves, submissive s or those of you in DD relationships... Who or where do you go to when you need an ear about your relationship, whether it is just to talk, or to ask what seems a weird question, ( such as whether that certain feeling was the norm , or which toy is best , or ..........) and i could go on and fill this post up with 101 questions with only the answers that i should know considering how long i have been in this lifestyle.
i guess what i am trying to say is that i miss having a sister/friend that i can talk about the lifestyle with ( my sister who i used to chat about new things , and old for that matter passed away.....) We do not live in a community where there are munches and i don't find that it is something that you can bring into everyday conversation.
As much as i love my Master , there are sometimes that i miss another person who is potentially a bottom , to talk to about our lifestyle. Sometimes it feels like a big secret that should always remain hidden from the world... and i get sad about this , as i always felt it was quite natural.
Anyhow i hope all you readers are well.... me i have been ill again.. The dust storms are bad for my asthma and i have spent a week and half housebound as the air quality was rubbish.
Have a good Sunday all

the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .