saffy's travels

 i know that i should probably be blogging , but, i really don't know what to blog about at the moment. Life is passing by at a kind of haze, and i still look forward to winning / earning the silly yellow folder. i know that Master has written some guide lines out there to help me , i can see them if i glance over to the window sill... several times i have thought about looking at them, but they are not really mine to read yet, so i have resisted.
i don't know why he is waiting to give them to me.. every time i have asked i have the sneaky feeling that the time i am going to have them has been put back , and eventually i guess part of my inner body will reject them and not want them. Yet i know i do at the moment.. It is like a child or dog wanting to have something and being told no.
i think what makes it harder for me to accept is that i don't know the reason why he is with holding them, and i am having to fight the a battle with myself to resist asking again. ( the time that i have asked i felt the answer was glossed over.)
i guess the only thing that i can do is wait and see what happens ............
take care all and have a good Thursday
saffy


the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .