It got me thinking how different pain is bareable and how some you just want to go away no matter what. i know that on some occasions i guess i could be called a pain slut, i love the feeling of over the knee spanking or a nice flogger or two........and i definately love the ping pong paddle we have and am rather fond of a leather belt as well......but i also know alot of this , and the fire play, the wax, the scratching, biting and all the other endorphine raisers that i enjoy would not be so relaxing and special if the bond and trust that Master and i have was not there. i try to put that extra bit in for Master , by trying new things out, to please Him to start off with but it often ends up to please me .......
The crux of the matter is i know that He would never knowingly hurt me permanently , so that it left me with an injury, nor would He do anything in anger.
In the past i havent been so lucky with my choice of Masters/nillas (not that there has been that many) and have been struck in anger, Its something that is not a good thing, and not the same as even the discipline that i recieve, to be hit in anger, and it's a pain that i dont think that any sane person would want to experience.
Neither do i like the artheritic pain that i have in my knees or other joints or the pain that is there after an asthma attack.....i could go on but i think that you can see what i am saying.
You know Master i would gladly relive any of the painful things i dont like , over and over again just to see You move about without that look of hurt......and to be able to take it away from You, but i cant... so instead i will try and behave and look forward to service being resumed as soon as possible.
huggles and light
saffy
the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .
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