i would like to think that i have this same body language reading ability that i can preempt Him. Not so, for so often i am following a sticky trail of what i think i am seeing almost always to come to a dead end. Life would be so easy if i did not try to deviate away from the rules of the house and stuck to my routine.
Just of late as well, i seem to have been pulled up more than once for not saying precisely what i meant. This is proving a lengthy and long lesson for me to learn as i am good at saying what i think others want to hear and not what i feel inside ........( well not on here admittedly) This stems from my childhood when i would try and second guess what my mother wanted rather than have a blazing row with her. Master seems to have picked up on this and is trying to help me (one way or another) to overcome this stupid habit. i feel so grateful that He is looking out for me and caring for me , but it is frustrating as well especially if i get in a muddle with the sentence or words......Time will see if He manages to iron out this latest bad habit, but in the mean time He runs the risk of having a quiet slave (lol)
i will end today's entry on the note that i feel cherished and loved on the amount of strictness that He is showing to me these days. It is hard to explain , and the more i am pulled back in line, as so to speak ,the calmer and safer i feel. i have yet to work out why, but maybe i aught to just accept and not try to annalise things.
hugs to all
saffy
the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .
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