love, pain and trust

 i have not been about for a few days because i had to go into hospital to try and get my toe fixed. i have missed reading all the blogs that i visit and  adding a comment or two to them, i have also missed being able to blog, as i have forgotten how spoilt i am being able to type my thoughts, however random and not have to worry if the letters are back to front , or, that  i may accidentally leave the pages i have written where another can read and laugh at them.
i had a pretty rough time in hospital, (though not as rough as it could have been i guess) with a catalogue of things going pear shaped and adding to my already bad phobia of hospitals. However there was one or two things that i made a note of to try and remember to blog about when i returned home, One of them was the song that is above,  a favourite of mine and one that has such deep meaning to me. Master actually played a copy by Bette Midler before i left . Others can interpret it the way that they wish  .........However  for me it holds the message that life , and love, go on and flourish in all seasons ........sometimes it can not be seen , but always there, and that love can be found in all things.
Love was shown to me in a couple of ways while i was there. One of them was by two pairs of birds that were nesting in a little courtyard garden , near where i was staying .... pigeons and  blackbirds.......The pigeons gave me great entertainment the way the male fussed and cooed over its mate, preening each others feathers and looking for all the world that they were kissing at one point. The blackbirds worked tirelessly to feed their nest of young who were obviously hatched and hungry . Both of the feathered friends made me remember that love is in all things about us and helps to contain a balance.
The greatest thing that was shown to me was the love of my Master. It must have been so hard for Him to leave me at that hospital , knowing how He always puts my welfare and happiness first, and to make the journey to visit , showing me that i was not forgotten but knowing that the thing i wanted most was to come home and be with O/our family, and he would not be able to allow this. i know that He is tired and has been trying to get used to meds of His own and the share number of times that He drove there must have really wore him out.
i am so grateful to be home and just have the luxury of typing on a keypad again of being able to reach out and have a hug and kiss ...... of being allowed to just be me and not judged on any disability i have and not have people think that i am stupid  and cant understand . i think it will be a long time before i forget  ( if ever) how much Master shields me from others ignorance from things that they do not understand , and how deeply He does care for me and O/our family.
love and light to A/all
saffy


the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .