Monday, 12 March 2012
Today was about feeling safe. For it was a rusty start with a few hiccups , and then a touch of pain with a deft hand from Master to her breast , a teaspoon burning her a little, and she felt safe and secure again. After seeing some photos on Masters chat page from another person it woke up old pains in her like an addict wanting a drink.( These were of cuts on the body, of a person self harming...she is proud to say it has been years since she last cut herself.......but the yearn at times is still there.)
Luckily enough when these times come Master for the most recognises this, ( or seems to) and will dole out controlled pain , as well as spending time to talk and try and sort the problems out. For her , the cutting was always about releasing the pain, and never about wanting to damage herself... but it is a pointless and vicious circle and one she has promised not to go down again,
She is proud to be His and to walk by His side and knows that she has His love.
hugs to all
the light of a candle is never lessened by lighting another .